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This poor blog is so tragically neglected, what an awful owner i am. nevertheless, i felt that my devoted followers deserved an update on the life of one Rozie J. I'd love to start off by saying that I will soon be embarking on the biggest adventure thus far in my lifetime :) I have been accepted to the Meso America study abroad program at BYU Idaho for the spring semester. words cannot describe my excitement, i don't know what to do with myself. All i can say is that you all should be ecstatic about the picure posts that will inevitably ensue throughout the entire trip. (and the KILLER tan that i am sure to get as i study latin american culture on the mystic white beaches of Mexico)
I think these would look smashing on my feet as i walk through a village in Guatemela. Thoughts?

There have been so many things weighing on my mind lately, almost to the point of explosion, so please forgive if this post is a little frantic. School has been a tremendous learning experience already, and its hard to believe that midterms have come and gone. It feels like my life is just a novel, and each day is but a mere paragraph that i briefly skim over. How is it that time and life are so fleeting? I despise the lack of control i feel over how quickly or slowly time passes. I have grown so close to my dear Father in Heaven this semester. Each day he is teaching me. He molds me and shapes me; even when its not a conscious effort on my part. Isn't it so true of life? The challenges, experiences, and trails we go through in this life change us. for better or worse, it is inevitable. I want to make the best of all that comes my way. My darling Marianne is finally home and i cannot describe the overwhelming feeling of "wholeness" that i received as i was able to have her by my side again. i'm sure its something like what engaged people feel, only with far less an inclination to publicly mack. speaking of marriage, i think i can finally feel spring here in rexburg. i could have sworn i smelled mosquito repellent in sacrament meeting a few weeks ago and i almost cried from the hurt that i feel inside myself for summer, pine basin, my chacos, boating, downtown music festivals in idaho falls, farmer's markets, traveling, porter park with sarah and caleb, lagoon, walking gordo around the greenbelt, (remember that time, neis??) the fourth of july, just everything about summer. everything. my uncle let me borrow his thousand dollar camera for a few weeks. haven't had a chance to take it out for a spin yet, but photos will hopefully be up soon :) (if i can find anything beautiful to photograph at this wretched time of year. ugh) his cam's not digital, its old school film, which is something i am completely unfamiliar with, but it's always good to experiment. oh, i almost forgot! i bought a car, everyone! his name is Kujo,he's a 1999 toyota corolla.
This is Teagan, the lovely young one i've been sitting for. we have fun together :)


Isn't she just adorable? :)


This is the life we lead


best friends :)

the chances of him making it onto the top ten list of trashiest cars ever is highly likely, but i've learned never to judge a book by its cover, and we've grown ever so fond of one another. but unfortunately doves, the school work procrastination must end now, so i'll bid you all adieu. please do comment. i'd love to hear how life is treating all you lovelies. love, love, love... -R

May, 2010

my oh my, busy week. my darling sister was wed. for the record, weddings are far too expensive, stressful, and emotional. love but hate them, and most definitely plan on not having my own for a minimum of three years. on the other hand, it was splendid to see Shari so very happy. I am so excited to see her grow and progress even more than she already has. she is such an example to me. argh, those words are such an understatement for how i feel. hate that. I am so stagnant, so willing to float and not move forward. she is teaching me daily that change is wonderful, it is what we are here to do! life changes, it 'ebbs and flows' as my father so eloquently stated it this morning as he was driving me back home. we had a good talk, he and i. i am so unbelievably blessed with such a marvelous family who are so loving, humorous, and smart. i've been particularly grateful for the latter lately. i look at other families, their situations and circumstances, and can't help but almost brace myself for what might happen to mine. it seems as though every family goes through a significant trauma of some sort, and mine hasn't undergone any. I know the lord has blessed us for our faith and especially my parent's obedience, but at the same time, there are plenty of families just like mine who have suffered greatly. whether it be the death of a family member, divorce, the effects of a natural disaster, a falling out of the church, so many things that can impact and destroy a family. however, its pointless to worry. i've made the resolution to keep moving forward, for it is only through the strength of our families through the good, that we are able to withstand the bad. i am so blessed to share the blood of such beautiful, wonderful people. so many examples of life lived selflessly. my incredible mother. the wondrous miracles i have witnessed her bring to pass are ever astonishing. There is a God in Heaven who loves us. the institution of family is a magnificent testimony of that for me. how grateful, ever so grateful i am. the Lord loves me... he does, he does. love, love, love... -R

confession

I have a huge fat crush on David Boreanaz. It's ridiculous because he's played some white trash roles (he was a vampire on buffy. oh gosh...) i don't know what it is. those brown eyes i guess. love, love, love... -R

lately...

lately I've been thinking a lot about my worth, about my testimony, my purpose. lately i've started up sewing again. lately it seems there aren't enough hours in the day. lately i haven't felt like i've accomplished much in my life, which lately i've been aiming to change. lately i haven't been trying like i know i can. lately i've been falling in love with some of God's most precious souls, and lately they've been changing my life for the better. lately i've thought about all those with whom i've lost contact, and how time takes so much from us. i've been thinking about my darling parents and how much they mean to me. lately i've been striving to discover how i can recieve inspiration more frequently in my life. lately i've made a few incredible friends whom i know were placed in my life for a purpose, and vise versa. lately i've been empty of learning and can't wait to get back to school. lately i've wanted to visit boston, greece, and england. i haven't exercised much lately, but i've been meaning to get back at it. lately i've been thinking about what i really want for my marriage, my family, my future. lately my second neice, Isabelle, was born, and i've been yearning to hold her. lately i've been working on gratitude, patience, and unconditional love for all. lately i've been obsessed with the home fabric store, the tj maxx home decor section, hidden boutiques downtown, and pier one. lately i've decided to grow my hair out for the first time in years. loving it. lately i've realized how void of tragedy, heartache, suffering, and want my life is. and lately i've thanked God for that. lately i've been pouring my heart out on my knees each night. lately i've been striving for Godly sorrow to rule my actions and thoughts. lately i've decided to reprioritize my life. lately i've discovered some beautiful, tranquilic artists, and lately my ears can't get enough of them. lately i've felt like i could have been a screen writer in another life. lately i've made the goal to rid myself of selfish wants and desires. i've decided to stop mimicking the styles of others and do something because its what i like. i haven't blogged much lately, but i'm hopeful for a change. i've been so excited for the holidays lately, i've even started some pie experimentation. i've decided to expand and develop my talents lately. lately i've been growing closer to the siblings, working eight to six every weekday, loving my weekends off, and going weeks without shaving my legs. lately i've been indulging in the phenomenal fall weather, and soaking in this short time i have to live life stress free. thats all for now doves. love, love, love... -R

perhaps it is our imperfections that make us so perfect for one another...

as N so graciously brought to my attention today, I haven't blogged in ages... Let me get you all up to speed on the current events my highly exciting life. This new semester has been great so far. I'm learning french! can you believe it? and yes, it is JUST as hard as everyone says it is. Hate going to school in the summer, but thus far rexburg has shown no signs that it is really even summer at all, so i haven't felt like i've missed out on too much. I long for summer nights filled with ultimate frisbee and shoe kicking contests while swinging on swings, but that will just have to wait til august i suppose. i can hardly believe its already june. halfway through another year of my life, and i have little to show for it. time is the king of theives, its true. wish there was someway to make it all stop, just so i could see my life as it is. know what i need to change and what i want to do differently. unfortunately life is never that simple. its raining outside, love it. and love the grass, the overcast sky, and the eucalyptus blossoms. i've fallen asleep at least twice while typing this. guess thats all for now doves. love, love, love -R

for my exploring photography class our latest photo assignment is called "bucket list" and to start it off, i figured i may as well type mine up as sort of a tangible reference. so, here goes.

- design my own house
- make a scientific discovery/invent something
- learn how to hang glide
- throw a kegger (of sorts)
- drive the entire coast of the united states
- drive route 66 in a 1960's cherry red convertible
- bungee jump off of victoria falls in Africa
- go without speaking for an entire day
- become a street vendor in spain for a minimum of three years, selling my own creations
- get my pilot's license
- climb a mountain
- go to a Stevie Wonder concert and shake his hand
- become bilingual at least
- dance in a field of daisies with the man of my dreams to "You Make Me Feel So Young" by Frank Sinatra
- create a charity
- write a novel or play
- meet a child prodigy (while still in college)
- ride on a motorcycle in formal attire

This is a post that i will most definitely be adding to over the years as i think of more things, and as i accomplish the ones already here. love, love, love -R

new obsession

Was at bath and body earlier this week and have finally found what i want to smell like this summer. ps CO Biglow is my new fav. period. if you get a chance, find a b&b and check all these scents out. splendid!!



This is the perfume for their new line "Lemon" so tasty. i want the body wash and lotion to match.



They also have three new scents for men. i would fall for any guy who smelled like any of the three new scents. now to find a guy who's willing to go into a b&b to buy cologne...



this stuff feels great and is great for the lips. plus has a minty scent so you never have to worry about bad breath if you unexpectedly have to kiss someone handsome :D

Thats all for now doves. love, love, love. -R