May, 2010

my oh my, busy week. my darling sister was wed. for the record, weddings are far too expensive, stressful, and emotional. love but hate them, and most definitely plan on not having my own for a minimum of three years. on the other hand, it was splendid to see Shari so very happy. I am so excited to see her grow and progress even more than she already has. she is such an example to me. argh, those words are such an understatement for how i feel. hate that. I am so stagnant, so willing to float and not move forward. she is teaching me daily that change is wonderful, it is what we are here to do! life changes, it 'ebbs and flows' as my father so eloquently stated it this morning as he was driving me back home. we had a good talk, he and i. i am so unbelievably blessed with such a marvelous family who are so loving, humorous, and smart. i've been particularly grateful for the latter lately. i look at other families, their situations and circumstances, and can't help but almost brace myself for what might happen to mine. it seems as though every family goes through a significant trauma of some sort, and mine hasn't undergone any. I know the lord has blessed us for our faith and especially my parent's obedience, but at the same time, there are plenty of families just like mine who have suffered greatly. whether it be the death of a family member, divorce, the effects of a natural disaster, a falling out of the church, so many things that can impact and destroy a family. however, its pointless to worry. i've made the resolution to keep moving forward, for it is only through the strength of our families through the good, that we are able to withstand the bad. i am so blessed to share the blood of such beautiful, wonderful people. so many examples of life lived selflessly. my incredible mother. the wondrous miracles i have witnessed her bring to pass are ever astonishing. There is a God in Heaven who loves us. the institution of family is a magnificent testimony of that for me. how grateful, ever so grateful i am. the Lord loves me... he does, he does. love, love, love... -R